I want to drown
The misery in my soul
In thoughtless gulps
Down mind's rabbit hole
I can't seem to figure out
What in me so abhorrent
That I eclipse the sunshine of
A life badly wounded and dent
The surreptitious hurts
Bleeding wounds that don't heal
The fantastic fantasy of the normal
That I'll never feel
I just want to sleep
And never wake up
Just wash myself with amnesia
And shut the fuck up
